I felt the same way after I rejected the religion I was brainwashed to believe in. What a waste of time! How dare they indoctrinate me? After a while, though, I found a benefit: the ability to doubt myself and be critical. An atheist who grew up being an atheist never had the ultimate experience in self-doubt, which is going against God himself! This is how it felt, didn’t it? When you first began the process of enlightenment, it felt like you were challenging God, the ultimate sin. That took immense courage, intellectual honesty and humility to question cherished beliefs. You built character. You have mental scars. In my experience, there’s a great number of all-time atheists who lack that. They have limited critical ability and it just happened that they were atheists, otherwise they could’ve been followers of any cult, political ideology or herd. I’m an atheist, but so what? I don’t deserve a medal nor am I lucky just because of that. There’s plenty of atheists who stubbornly believe in illogical notions other than mainstream religion with the same, if not stronger, fanaticism and zeal one would expect from extremist theists. Being an atheist from birth proves nothing. Being an ex-theist, does. I’d trust you more.